The score that I got from the Self-compassion test is 2.42, which indicates low self-compassion (1-2.5). My strongest negative trait scores would be isolation and over-identification. Both scores are 4.25, which indicates that these are strong traits. On the other hand, my highest score among positive traits is self-kindness (2.80). It is still is at least within moderate range.
I am not surprised with most of the results. My isolation score reflects my habit of disconnecting with others. I am highly not fond of being with a group of people. I only hang out with one person. This attitude more likely comes the Autism, an antisocial disorder, that I got when I was a child. I have gradually gotten rid of it as a move towards adolescence, but still it influenced my current attitudes.
Another reason why I often feel isolated is that I am not really open towards others. Even at times of need, I do not wish to open up to others. I often feel that my problems have to solved by me alone since my problems are just products of my wrong decisions, and I myself must make up for it.
My score in over-identification is also high. I often compare myself with other people. I usually degrade my skills in the arts, and look up to others who are into businesses, the sciences, and other academic fields.
My highest positive trait is self-kindness, which has an almost average score. I take rests if having a mental exhaustion. However, even I do not see the benefits of this particular habit. I may take a break from working, but I usually feel guilty afterwards for not having to use the time for work. I try to keep an open note that I cannot function anyway when working with a fatigue brain.
Perhaps, the improvement I need involves my social skills since one of my most negative trait is isolation. I can do random acts of kindness to other people in order to practice making bonds with other people while decreasing my invisibility towards them. I have a bunch of chocolate bars at home, and thus a good opportunity to give some gives to other people.
My score at the self-compassion test may be low, but it is not stagnant. It can still improve as long as I try to improve even with the just little steps. Self-care is always important for every person to practice, and I am no exception. I hope the next time I answered a self-compassion test, I will reflect on the great improvements that I will gain.
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