PPTC Model

Life is like a roller coaster, it can go up and down. My life is like that except there are probably a lot more downs than ups that my ride may be underground right now. Life is hard, and I must do the best of my abilities to cope with it. One of the options I have to to try and understand myself first. I am the agent of my life. It is a primary factor on the quality of living based on how life treat me and how I treat life. It is the first step in having a hopefully happier life.

There are physical characteristics that affect my expectations from others. My age is a good example. I am 19 years old so I am getting close to adulthood so society should be expecting me to carry enough maturity and responsibleness. This is evident with my teachers who are getting more stricter. There are less cuts as well as more penalties when passing a paper late. Of course, the reason is that they expect me to be responsible enough to do my projects. However, this has given me pressure, which makes me more anxious with life.

This situation also applies with me being born a Filipino. The country is currently experiencing a lot of issues right now so it needs from its countrymen as much as possible. Society even makes people feel guilty for not helping in improving the country in anyway. Of course, I am no exception. I have always taught by society that the worst people would be ignorant, apathetic, and even being “elite”. Sometimes, I feel having to burden myself with these labels, and thus pressuring me even more.

My personality has also an impact on my life. Some say there are four temperaments:sanguine, phlegmatic, melancholic, and choleric. I would more likely identify as phlegmatic. I barely show emotion so I could encounter difficulties without it. I become apathetic, indecisive, and unambitious. Emotion is important to me because it acts as a motivator. Without it, I have difficulty accomplishing works, especially in college. I usually finish take projects longer than usual because of how uninterested I am.

I would also identify as melancholic. I know melancholic people like me are known to prefer to work in solitude. This can become a major problem to me, especially in college, since I would have difficulty in interacting with others. I am not used to expressing my ideas in group discussions and reciations, and can even affect my school performance.

What I do to overcome all these difficulties, especially in college, is not really the best idea. The more pressure I feel, the more apathetic I become. As mentioned, apathy is one of the issues I am experiencing, and yet, I am ironically using it as a coping mechanism. I guess this is the reason why I am taking a long time in solving my problem because of this cycle. If I get pressured, I become unmotivated, which cause more problems, and more pressure. At this rate, if I do not solve my issue any sooner, my problems becomes almost impossible to fix.

In conclusion, my life affects my quality of life, especially when I interact with people. Society has high expectations for me not only as an adult, but also as a Filipino. This more likely can pressuring because of having to have high standards on how I act. Consequently, I become more phlegmatic for being pressured, but being phlegmatic causes makes my issues worse. Finally, my melancholiness makes me more difficult in interacting with other people. All of this is what I am experiencing in my life, especially at college. I may know how disordered my life is, but it is at least the first step in improving my lifestyle.